呼吸

of conductors

2009-08-15T10:36:00.003+08:00

Conductors are very mesmerising. and they are very charming people. they have powerful abilities to command respect while they are highly charimastic and are able to relate to all the orchestra members. With strong memories capable of remembering names and characteristics of all their members, some of the members would inevitably fall in love with these charming individuals.

they are really brilliant people.

as seen personally and from beethoven's virus.

school and all. updates.

2009-07-11T10:54:00.004+08:00

i realised that hc never had much impact on me. or perhaps i should say that i don't have as much feelings for her as much as other institutions in mmy life. i didnt enjoy my time there as much as the times i spent in say nanyang, or even nus. in comparison to the impact hc seemed to have on many of her students.

maybe it was the expectations after nanyang that made hc seem less 'meaningful' in a way. or that the sense of achievement just wasnt there. nevertheless there were some good friends made. but ultimately, i have realised that girls are still more reliable at the end of the day.

being in the physics stream made me spend more time with the guys instead of the girls. but ultimately, you are still seen as different from them, in their eyes, in my opinion. to be in the class with lep girls is my luck and honour. and ultimately gave me some perspective into these frieends with an enthusiast for chinese, a language i enjoy but didn't like studying for.

but really, despite how i thought i was, i suppose they didn't really care and bother. after all, i dont' really start conversations.

now that i'm going into landscape, i've realised that i'm enjoying the lessons again, for now. and it's a pleasure to hang out with my studiomates. i suppose that's really why i look happier, despite all the late nights. the nonsensical talk and laughter i have always enjoyed is back. with you and all. but i suppose i don't really realise. i really like all the excursions. and our small size is really much more conducive, both in inter-personal relationships and academic effectiveness.
but still, there is always that angst when whatever i do is not recognised and appreciated. the stubborn-ness keeps wanting to fight.

i think i'm too used to the 'good life'.

ultimately, i need to work hard and do more. at the end of the day, i'm accountable to hdb, the institution i always had taken an interest to, but never expected to really get there, which is quite amazing. suddenly results have so much significance now that the papers are here.

bicycle accident - finger hairline fracture.

2008-10-11T11:22:00.003+08:00

say hello to the droid!

i realised the first thing i asked was if you were okay.
i never realised it could be so powerful.

u were there beside me and behind me that made me hold on.
and i knew everything would be fine.

hugs.

say hi to kuching part 1

2008-07-09T23:13:00.007+08:00

Day 1: 1st June 08, Sunday

A long and not very comfortable wait at senai airport to check in to the airasia flight highlighted the inadequacies of the airport. My first experience of the plains of the airport runway. The night flight highlighted the star constellations in the sky. and the clusters of light signifying the settlements in borneo.

Singgahsana lodge has a homelike atmosphere, carpets, lounge chairs and the no-shoes policy which I simply love. bed was the oh-so-familiar ikea silver metal-frame bunkbed. With a familiar set of blankets. The public corridors and lounge spaces would be home to all 40 students, where working and lying on the floor till wee-hours of the morning would be common over the next 2 weeks.

Dinner/supper at khatulistiwa café till early in the morning 1 or 2am. a long wait for the food. The first look at Sarawak river.

Day 2: 2^nd June 08, Monday

The first feel of the shophouses around the area. The vibrancy of the life in kuching. Lectures about kuching and the shophouses. Trapdoors, timber frames, rafters, louvered windows and clay tile roofs. The modified, the new and the old. The government-institutions- and the people-shophouses. Appreciate: the beauty of the river, the mountains and the vegetation. Getting to know: the richness of the area.

煮炒Dinner @ taman kereta. Food for 50 people takes a long time to come. Starting to understand the pace of the place.

Day 3: 3^rd June 08, Tuesday

Say hi to the market! The vibrancy of the place can never be forgotten. The start of the urban study that will teach us that nothing is messy, only vibrant. Getting to know almost a whole new group of people. Pandas and artists and technical specialists, people with their own take on things and the study. Understanding different cultures and the language barrier. First sight of the fish market left me captivated by its architecture and the everyday processes going on in and around the building.

Gambier street, india street, the South Indian mosque, lorong yang sempit (a narrow lane that cuts from gambier street to india street), lorong kaijoo and associated streets deeper from the river. To be inseparable for the next 4 weeks.

Day 4: 4^th June 08, Wednesday

Falling for the friendliness of the people. Conversation became easy. Finally got to involve myself in 1^st hand experiences with the locals, asking and sharing, in the course of architecture. Which is what I feel it should be about. Learning the stories of the area or the back streets overshadowed by the market and india street. An area that we could have touched on more in the urban study. Former coffin street and etc. appreciating the journey through these streets, the variety of experiences formed by the buildings and the ‘organic growth’ (to quote). Learning: that everything is there for a practical reason.

Day 5: 5^th June 08, Thursday

Getting in touch with the market itself. Understanding the reluctance to move to Stutong market and their resignation to their fate. Learning and appreciating the layers of history marked and recorded in the building. Seeing everyday life played out. Appreciating every process that goes on in the market. Maybe it’s because I’m a kid from the city. Seeing the layers of activities and how they are all interconnected and dependent on each other.

Day 6: 6^th June 08, Friday

Butter papers, notebooks full of interview information, laptops filled with pictures strewn all over the tables, floors, chairs of singgahsana lodge. Legs, arms everywhere. Maps, sketches. All rushing for the presentation.

Another presentation on Monday doesn’t sound appetizing.

kuching.

2008-06-29T12:33:00.004+08:00

it's time to think and reflect.
it has been fun and a lot of hard work.
but it's worth it.

苏打绿 - 陪我歌唱

2008-05-31T10:27:00.001+08:00

夜晚的窗啊轻轻拉著梦阳花
是你的味道掀起风浪
梦中的你啊时时抓著我分享
把心的空洞填满温光
长长的街道它在月光下扑闪
云末的星都装进行囊
切切的思念悬在天涯上呼喊
不睡的鱼载著我出海
像你的心脏无法那么逞强
要装著自己扑通扑呀
朝你的方向能够乘著想象
让隐形的我在倾你身旁睡得多香

the lizard and the kite.

2008-05-26T21:35:00.002+08:00

i just want to hang on tight.
may i?

张韶涵 - Journey

2008-05-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
and I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

durians!

2008-05-25T18:47:00.002+08:00

well, it's also the durian season! see the little dots hanging in the centre?
yum yum yum
i must have it before i leave the tropics!

mango season!

2008-05-16T18:32:00.002+08:00

tis the season to eat mangoes
falalalala lala lala

it's the time when you see mangoes draped from the trees along the roads, reaching out to your hands, yet still so far away.
little ovals in the distance.
ahhhhhhh.

pastel blue, purple and orange

2008-05-12T20:38:00.001+08:00

seriously, i think there's a retro guy at hdb deciding the colours of the housing blocks.

gabion wall!

2008-05-08T11:46:00.002+08:00

little things that can excite you.
including electrical risers, sprinkler pumps and AHU rooms.

holiday!

2008-05-04T12:58:00.001+08:00

bliss.

hot days are not good for studying.

2008-05-01T19:02:00.004+08:00

i can't wait for the heat to go away.
but please don't rain heavily when i want to go cycling at east coast.

brother claus

2008-04-27T10:18:00.005+08:00

why is archi con always on my mind when i should be thinking about m&e systems? -.-
must be because there are so many other ways i could have done it better. like remembering that the last page exists, and bruder klaus chapel!!!! zumthor must be an answer for every archicon paper! (oh wow my instinct predicted accurately. -.- but i didnt write that moooooo)
i want to go thereeeeeeeeee

photos courtesy of thomas mayer (see link below)

link to thomas mayer's photos
link to an article
link to article posted in a forum

rammed concrete!!!! ahhhhhhh.. -.-

hmmm looks like my dome in a cube. hehehehehe. -.-

breakfast

2008-04-09T08:59:00.002+08:00

breakfast is a wonderful thing that makes you happy and optimistic about the world and everything you need to do all over again.

moving.

2008-03-15T10:05:00.003+08:00

music: 林忆莲 - 至少还有你

2008-03-10T08:25:00.000+08:00

至少还有你
林忆莲

我怕来不及我要抱着你
直到感觉你的皱纹
有了岁月的痕迹
直到肯定你是真的
直到失去力气
为了你我愿意
动也不能动也要看着你
直到感觉你的发线
有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊
直到不能呼吸
让我们形影不离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里
就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣
我总记得在那里
我怕来不及我要抱着你
直到感觉你的发线
有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊
直到不能呼吸
让我们形影不离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里
就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣
我总记得在那里
我们好不容易
我们身不由己
我怕时间太快
不够将你看仔细
我怕时间太慢
日夜担心失去你
恨不得一夜之间白头
永不分离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里
就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣
我总记得在那里
在那里......

of mothers, fathers and elder sisters

2008-03-08T11:32:00.001+08:00

what is common about mothers is the fact that they 觜硬心软，appearing cold but in fact all they need is a little attention to make them happy. and some may even need any form of opposition to know that: yes, whatever they have said has been registered by you. the thing about stay-at-home mums is that they face an empty house most of the time and that makes them lonely beings who really need our love and concern. they have done a lot but they do not receive the attention they hope for and should get. it's like how you slog so hard for a project and yet do not get the effort recognised. or how you study so hard everyday, yet get terrible results. they would love to see you happy and well-rested, well-fed, as an indicator of good health. their love and concern is boundless. they need the little attention, every little attention you can give. even just going out to buy things with her, having a meal with her, helping her get little things, just being home matters a lot.

fathers are curious people. humorous and they try to lead the group, whether by initiating conversation, despite that what they observe and say may be rather different from what you (young people) would consider. they can be silent at the back or the front, but they give you reassurance and accept whatever you try to do or have done, believing that you have your reasons and it is well-considered. maybe some more extreme things would attract their greater attention. a little smile/laugh from them makes you reassured and comfortable. they just exude honesty.

elder sisters are great people. they would perhaps intuitively lead the conversations, try to make you comfortable, whether through humour or little things like asking you how you feel, or even little honest comments that tells you that they understand how you may be feeling and makes you relaxed. the immense amount of comfort you get from having an elder sister around you is just overwhelming. they say that they are just kaypo but that is definitely not the whole story. just by saying that, they are humble people and they connect very well to others by appearing more down-to-earth and the fact that they chide themselves tells you that you can say anything and they won't be offended so just relax. and that itself tells you that they really care a lot about you little siblings.

thank you very much for the experience.

missing lecture

2008-02-24T15:41:00.001+08:00

oh no i missed my first lecture in uni!

how terrible tsk tsk.

i hope i don't do that again!

music: F.I.R. - 我要飞

2008-02-15T08:34:00.003+08:00

作词:f.i.r 作曲:f.i.r

我要飞飞越伤悲
一种接近光的感觉
自由是梦想无边无际的能源
我敢飞有梦就追一种骄傲尊严的美
巨大的考验现在就要跨越
飞飞飞飞飞飞飞我想飞
追追追追追绝不後退
飞飞飞飞飞飞飞我想飞
我要用力飞不管有多远超越了极限挑战的冒险
我要勇敢追奔向到终点痛过的泪水换来是甜美
我要用力飞不管有多远超越了极限挑战的冒险
我要勇敢追奔向到终点痛过的泪水换来是甜美
我要飞
我想飞

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sometimes i just don't use my brain.
please forgive me.
i won't do it again.

music: 张韶涵 - 我恋爱了

2008-02-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

我恋爱了
词:王雅君曲:黄淑惠

天空是晴朗的梦想燃烧着快乐
相信我和你是最酷的

汗水痛快流着勇气让爱闪亮着
勇敢不怕累直到我们都笑了

我喜欢你开始脸红了我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了下一秒我唱我的歌

我喜欢你疯狂的想着我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的我要的我爱的多难得

你一定很爱我的
我要你给我一个紧紧的拥抱
手牵着心就暖和了
你一个微笑我就知道了

history and rainbow

2008-02-12T20:38:00.000+08:00

it's painful to see less happy history repeating itself. though i suppose u cant have happiness and satisfaction without pain and, yes, Contrast. i shall hope to see the rainbow at the end =)

was thinking in the bathroom. i think i have forgotten most of it -.- but it was motivation of some sort so as long as that feeling stays, i hope everything gets better =)
i think i need to stop chewing on my words so much.

加油!

thank you you.

i need banana milk. for reasons more than one.

被发现了

2008-02-03T22:03:00.001+08:00

被发现了。 haha =p

still: i'm a happy girl =D

Ribbon!

2008-01-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

i feel much better finally. hopefully everything will go well. and i dont fall asleep too frequently hehe.
idea idea idea! a ribbon forming interaction spaces and joining studio and living spaces, the existing museum and the environment. the different ways of folding a ribbon, variations in thickness, rhythm, texture and material (eg. concrete, fabric, metals, glass/plastics, shadows), overlaps (how and where), size and shape, smoothness and sharpness, spells exciting architecture possible! =) and the dynamism and movement implied by the ribbon contrasts with the solid structure of the existing museum, further enhancing the energy of life represented by the annex. the annex itself should give impressions of light, tensile structures that serve as an effective contrast to the museum's structure.
hmm structurally how could it work?
now how do i link it to the ground, how do i open up the roof, and does my concept and program hold itself?
hopefully it is water-tight by tomorrow morning.
i'm so glad that this is making me high =)
finally.
hopefully it will last.
jiayou! =)

flickr.com is very exciting hehe just looking at all the photos =) i want to go on a phototaking spreeeee!
okay i agree that i sound mad. =)

Inspiration

2008-01-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

"Inspiration, I believe, comes from an open mind. And, if nothing else, comes from the pure delight of having the privilege to be alive, able to see, taste, smell, touch, hear and sense the true wonder of the world and all of its magnificent people and entities surrounding us.

Inspiration is intelligent, not just intuitive. Inspiration is cognitively emotional, even sensual if one opens all of these human senses we are so gifted and at liberty to own.

Inspiration does not only arrive from immediate circumstances but arrives by turning to those 'photo memories' that lay, sometimes dormant, in our hearts and minds. Inspiration is science and art all rolled into one. Inspiration is allowing yourself to be free from past accomplishments, enjoying each and every time as if your first attempt.

Inspiration is breath. It is sex. It is food. It is water. It is shelter. It is a song of unity. It is the mind and body working in a kind of perfect order, even when it appears not to be!

It is the way light may filter through not just a leaf, but the insect that sits upon it. It is the magic of movement. Inspiration is a blink of an eye or a texture of immovability. It is felt by sorrow and by joy. It travels through pain as equally as it does happiness. Yes, inspiration is even portrays bordom, malise and indifference as equally as it does enthusiasm, purpose and intent.

It is anger at the way the world doesn't work, or a wish for it to be better. It is the marvel that the world works as well as it does! Inspiration is empathy. More, it is truth to ones own way of being, regardless of the consequences or temporary set-backs. There are never any failures in inspiration, even 'slow times' may mean a time to reflect what one 'knows' so that one is allowing themselves to reach even higher potentials.

Inspiration is sometimes like the wind, blowing things all asounder. Inspiration can be concrete and firm and sometimes even unyielding.

It comes through the laugh of a child or the sigh of death. It burns in every nation, in every home, in every heart, sometimes without the owner of it even aware of its possibilities.

It is science. It is math. It is chaos. It is the virtue of simplicity.

It, more than anything, is a privilege to even glimpse but once in a lifetime and have its fullment shared the world over."

Quoted from a forum reply on a website asking what inspires artists...
Where is mine?

little lessons

2008-01-11T20:32:00.001+08:00

was flipping through my primary school journal.. below are the little things my teacher stapled onto the journal. not to be accepted in totality given the ideal nature of these little stories but still something one may learn from.

i still need to learn from them.

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Horror gripped the heart of the World War I soldier as he saw his lifelong friend fall in battle. Caught in a trench with continuous gunfire whizzing over his head, the soldier asked his lieutenant if he might go out into the “No Man’s Land” between the trenches to bring his fallen comrade back.

“You can go,” said the Lieutenant, “but I don’t think it will be worth it. Your friend is probably dead and you may throw your own life away.”

The Lieutenant’s words didn’t matter, and the soldier went anyway. Miraculously he managed to reach his friend, hoist him onto his shoulder, and bring him back to their company’s trench.

As the two of them tumbled in together to the bottom of the trench, the officer checked the wounded soldier, then looked kindly at his friend.

“I told you it wouldn’t be worth it,” he said. “Your friend is dead, and you are mortally wounded.”

“It was worth it, though, sir,” the soldier said.

“How do you mean, ‘worth it’?” responded the Lieutenant.

“Your friend is dead!”

“Yes sir,” the private answered. “But it was worth it because when I got to him, he was still alive, and I had the satisfaction of hearing him say, “Jim, I knew you’d come.”

Moral of the story: Many a times in life, whether a thing is worth doing or not really depends on how you look at it. Take up all your courage and do something your heart tells you to do so that you may not regret not doing it later in life.

“If your enemy is hungry feed him; if he is thirsty, give him a drink; for by doing this you will burn him with shame.
Do not let evil defeat you, instead conquer evil with good.”

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There was once an old man who lived in South Korea.
After the war, times were hard and life wasn’t easy.
His occupation was that of a metal collector
(the lowest job possible at that time).

He would search garbage can after garbage can,
looking for scraps of metal which he could sell to the government.
He earned $10 and spent only $5 to buy food.

He lived in a hut which he built on the mountain side
and was a very lonely person.
He lived a sad life for his face was severely scarred
from a fire which killed his family.
No one would look at him
because he was so grotesquely scarred
and because of this he kept very quiet
and avoided people when he could.
His main goal in life was to save enough money to fix his face
so that he could live a normal life.

Now there was an orphan who lived in the streets every day.
His parents left him when he was only nine
and because of malnutrition the boy lost his sight.
Every day the boy begged for food
but the people beat him
and he couldn’t even run away because he was blind.

The old man saw the broken hearted boy
And felt sympathy for him and took him home.
There he fed him, clothed him, and treated him like his own beloved son.
The boy was joyful and was so grateful to this person who treated him like a loving father.

Years passed and one day he said,
“I’m sorry for being so useless.
I wish my eyes become better so I could help you work.
You must be so beautiful and wonderful because
You took care of someone like me.
Maybe one day I could see your wonderful face.”

The old man became silent being too moved to say anything.
The next day he went to the hospital with the boy
And asked the doctor privately how much it would cost
for the surgery to heal his face.

The doctor told him around $1,000.
He asked again how much it would be
to heal the young boy’s sight.
The doctor said $1,500 would do.
He had saved up for 10 years
and had around a little more than $1,500.
He went up to the young boy and said,
“After you receive your sight I can’t be with you,
yet I shall always think of you.
I want you to be happy and live a good life.”
After these words he paid the doctor
and the tired man left
knowing he could never truly reveal himself to the one he loved so dearly.
After the surgery the boy could see again.
He was filled with joy
and wondered why he couldn’t see the one he loved so dearly.
He left and started looking for a job
and soon found one at a restaurant.
He became a waiter there
and worked fulltime earning a good amount.
The next day the old man came looking for metals to collect.
He started searching around the garbage can of the restaurant
when the manager came to tell him to leave
because he was scaring the customers.

The boy soon came to his side threatening the old man to leave also.
The metal collector looked at the boy
and he smiled a warm smile at the boy and left not wanting the boy to see him cry his happy tears.

Later at the restaurant, the manager said to the boy,
“What an ugly man!”
The boy’s reply was, “I know, I hope I’ll never see him again”.

How many of us can actually do the same as what the old man did?...
And how many of us actually did what the boy did…

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Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon
To help drain the fluid from his lungs.
His bed was next to the room’s only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.
They spoke of their wives and families,
Their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service,
Where they had been on vacation.
And every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up,
He would pass the time by describing
To his room-mate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods
Where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity
And the colour of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.
Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every colour of the rainbow.
Grand old trees graced the landscape,
And a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail,
The man on the other side of the room would close his eyes
And imagine the picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man couldn’t hear the band he could see it in his mind’s eye
As the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Then unexpectedly, a sinister thought entered his mind.
Why should the other man alone experience all the pleasures of seeing everything
While he himself never got to see anything?
It didn’t seem fair.

At first thought the man felt ashamed.
But as the days passed and he missed seeing more sights,
His envy eroded into resentment and soon turned him sour.
He began to brood and he found himself unable to sleep.

He should be by that window – that thought,
And only that thought now controlled his life.
Late one night as he lay staring at the ceiling,
The man by the window began to cough.
He was choking on the fluid in his lungs.
The other man watched in the dimly lit room as the struggling man by the window
Groped for the button to call for help.
Listening from across the room he never moved, never pushed his own button
Which would have brought the nurse running in.
In less than five minutes
The coughing and choking stopped, along with that the sound of breathing.
Now there was only silence-deathly silence.

The following morning the nurse arrived to bring water for their baths.
When she found the lifeless body of the man by the window,
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take it away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate,
The other man asked if he could be moved next to the window.
The nurse was happy to make the switch,
And after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow
to take his first look out at the world outside.
Finally he would have the joy of seeing it all himself.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.
It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased room mate
To describe such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, “Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.”

Epilogue: You can interpret the story any way you like.
But one moral stands out:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite out own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but Happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all of the things you have that money can’t buy.

---

There was this museum laid with beautiful marble tiles,
With a huge marble statue displayed in the middle of the lobby.
Many people came from all over the world just to admire this beautiful marble statue.
One night, the marble tiles started talking to the marble statue.

Marble tile: “Marble statue, it’s just not fair, it’s just not fair! Why does everybody from all over the world come all the way here just to step on me while admiring you? Not fair!”

Marble statue: “My dear friend, marble tile. Do you still remember that we were actually from the same cave?”

Marble tile: “Yeah! That’s why I feel it is even more unfair. We were born from the same cave and yet we receive different treatment now. Not fair!”

Marble statue: “Then, do you still remember the day when the designer tried to work on you, but you resisted the tools?”

Marble tile: “Yes, of course I remember. I hate that guy! How could he use those tools on me, it hurt so badly.”

Marble statue: “That’s right! He couldn’t work on you at all as you resisted being worked on.”

Marble tile: “So???”

Marble statue: “When he decided to give up on you and start working on me instead, I knew at once that I would be something different after his efforts. I did not resist his tools, instead I bore all the painful tools he used on me.”

Marble tile: “Mmmmmm…..”

Marble statue: “My friend, there is a price to everything in life. Since you decided to give up halfway, you can’t blame anybody who steps on you now.”

The Moral of the Story: The more hard knocks you go through in life, the more you’ll learn and put them to use in the future! Do not be discouraged by setbacks and failures.

----

Don’t Be Afraid to Fail

You’ve failed many times, although you may not remember.
You fell down the first time you tried to walk.
You almost drowned the first time you tried to swim, didn’t you?
Did you hit the ball the first time you swung a bat?
R.H. Macy failed seven times before his store in New York caught on.
English novelist John Creasey got 753 rejection slips before he published 564 books.
Babe Ruth struck out 1,330 times, but he also hit 714 home runs.

Don’t worry about failure.
Worry about the chances you miss when you don’t even try.

---

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a %50 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked, “Who would like this $50 bill?”
There were giggles and hands were raised.

He said, “I am going to give this $50 to one of you but first, let me do this.”
He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up.
He then asked, “Who still wants it?”
Still the hands were up in the air.

“Well, what if I do this?” And he dropped it on the ground and started to crush it with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
“Now who still wants it?”
Still the hands went into the air.

“My friends, you have learnt a valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because of its value.
Despite its appearance, it is still worth $50.”

Just like the bill,
There would be many times in our lives when we fall,
Get insulted and are crushed by others
Or by the circumstances that we go through.
During these times, we feel as though we are worthless.
But remember that no matter what happens,
You are not worth any less because of it.

---

A woman was sitting at an airport one night,
With several long hours before her flight.
She hunted for a book in the airport shop,
Bought a bag of cookies and found a place to drop.
She was engrossed in her book, but happened to see,
That the man beside her, as bold as he could be,
Grabbed a cookie or two from the bag between,
Which she tried to ignore, to avoid a scene.
She read, munched cookies, and watched the clock,
As the gutsy “cookie thief” diminished her stock.
She was getting more irritated as the minutes ticked by,
Thinking, “If I wasn’t so nice, I’d blacken his eye!”
With each cookie she took, he took one too.
When only one was left, she wondered what he’d do.
He took the last cookie and broke it in half.
He offered her half, as he ate the other.
She snatched it from him and thought,
“Oh brother, this guy has some nerve, and he’s also rude,
Why, he didn’t even show any gratitude!”
She had never known when she had been so galled,
And sighed with relief when her flight was called.
She gathered her belongings and headed for the gate,
Refusing to look back at the “thieving ingrate”.
She boarded her plane and sank in her seat,
Then sought her book, which was almost complete.
As she reached in her baggage, she gasped with surprise.
“If mine are here,” she moaned with despair,
“Then the others were his and he tried to share!”
Too late to apologise, she realized with grief,
That she was the rude one, the ingrate, the thief!

---

Some Principles in Life

I once told a man a lie.
He responded by telling me this.
All of the decisions that he made were based upon the words that I spoke.
I have long since told the truth.

I once became upset over a gift I received, because it wasn’t what I wanted.
The giver saw the disappointment in my eyes and told me this.
He chose this because he felt I should have it.
I am since very joyful over each gift that I receive.

A man once told me a secret which I quietly whispered in another friend’s ear.
The man told me this, after hearing his own secret repeated.
The reason he told me the secret was because he trusted me, not my friend.
I no longer take trust so lightly.

I once gave a gift to a friend and she cried.
I told her it was just a small gift I had found. Her response was that it was not the gift, it was that I had thought of her.
I now give gifts very often.

The shiny coin was not to be mine, so I had been told.
When it was discovered that I had stolen the coin, I was quietly taken aside.
The owner of the coin told me this.
Integrity is given with a choice.
I have since chosen to stand with integrity.

I wanted so much to merely be myself, going unnoticed and not draw attention.
And I was told this.
The fact that you do not conform makes you stand out all the more.
I’m still thinking about that one.

lost and finding

2008-01-11T14:48:00.001+08:00

where is the camera's usb cable?!?!?!?! BAAAAAAA

random

2008-01-09T12:59:00.000+08:00

so nua so nua so nua.

moooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

music: the cranberries - dreams

2008-01-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

Oh, my life is changing everyday,

In every possible way.
And oh, my dreams, it's never quite as it seems,
Never quite as it seems.

I know I've felt like this before, but now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be.

Ah, la da ah...
La...

I want more impossible to ignore,
Impossible to ignore.
And they'll come true, impossible not to do,
Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.
You're what I couldn't find.
A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind;
You're everything to me.

Oh, my life,
Is changing every day,
In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams,
It's never quite as it seems,
'Cause you're a dream to me,
Dream to me.

Ah, da, da da da, da, la...

music: amy adams - that's how you know

2008-01-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?

How does she know that you love her?

How do you show her you love her?

How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...

You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)

Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in
Just for you? Ohhh!

He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know!

He's your love
He's your love...

That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
He loves you
(la la la la la la la la)
That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
It's true
(la la la la la)

Because he'll wear your favorite color
Just so he can match your eyes
Rent a private picnic
By the fires glow-oohh!

His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know!

He's your love...

That's how she knows that you love her
That's how you show her you love her

That's how you know...
That's how you know...
He's your love...

fireworks@marina bay!

2008-01-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

fireworks is such a nice word!

how random.

nyco yqp!

2007-12-15T11:41:00.000+08:00

nyco alumni dinner

2007-12-14T12:49:00.000+08:00

going back just made me realise how old i am (remember the sec 1s' reaction: "wow! you are 21 years old!" to yileng), how far i actually am from the current nyco batch. it seemed only yesterday that i was working together with the rest of my batch for music excellence.
and seeing that so few from our batches went back is a further reminder that we are so far away now. i still remember everyone from my batch, and expected to see them. but that they did not appear reminds me that not everyone is as attached and not everyone feels to go back.
seeing how chewfei is now the mother of the herd after all the alumni has left reminds me yet again how old i am. all left there in m402 are all little children whom i had once looked after too. =)

can i just don't grow up?
but if you don't, you wouldn't truly appreciate the joy you once had.

lying in the quadrangle, looking at the cloudless sky, staring at the orionids. reminds me of someone else, and how i have never gone to lie in the quadrangle at night during these wonderful camps to stare at the brilliant night sky.

and the tyre swings! reminds me of the times waiting for dad to come pick us up after co, how my sis, chin gi and i would sit on the swings, laugh and talk rubbish =)
the swings are still as fun to play with, still as squeaky and still as shaky haha.

birthdayy

2007-12-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

happy happy happy =)

thank you! to -
mum
dad
sis
bro
nina
eugene
jaspar
mr g
yunli
yileng
lysia
jiangchuan
xin yu
evelyn
choonsiang
wanxin
hailing
justin
eugene
geraldine
huimin
jiankai

=)

music: new age

2007-12-01T12:35:00.000+08:00

add kitaro to the list. ladeedum.

awaiting last paper!
after which. i'm free! xD

fireworks@vivocity!

2007-11-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

the fireworks were soooooooo PRETTY! i especially love the gold glittery ones that look like sprinkles =)
what was also nice was the rhythm created due to the delay in sound transmission after you see the fireworks =)

my first set of live fireworks seen after dunno how many thousand years after the ndp show i last watched live.

memorable yes =D

music: 梁静如 - 崇拜

2007-11-30T11:24:00.001+08:00

music: new age =)

2007-11-28T15:09:00.000+08:00

revival of new age music =D
kevin kern
secret garden
jerry michael
mike strickland
.......

less distracting me thinks.

加油!

music: 范玮琪 - 你只有一个

2007-11-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

你看你眉头都打结了
你熟悉的坚韧到哪去了
别因时光而磨损
快找回那自信的眼神
不要因为爱错了一个人
就否决爱美好的可能
不管如何
都不要忘记你是最好的
要相信
你绝对有幸福的资格

你只有一个独一无二
他不懂珍惜是他太笨
有多少人等着
要做你最最在乎的人

你只有一个那么独特
你值得你期盼的快乐
当你不再非他不可了
他会知道失去的多难得

一定会找到珍惜你的人
全世界就非要你不可

crippled cafe.

2007-11-25T12:35:00.000+08:00

now i truly understand how somebody can cry for inanimate objects.

my model which took two and a half days, plus some additional touch ups, was attacked by a broom this fateful morning and now lays crippled on my bed.

this entails some hours of repair which i absolutely cannot afford to provide before 30th Nov.

i know it is partly my fault for putting it under the bed, without warning and not deep enough.
just let me rant.

before injury: -

needs motivation -a lot- to study!

2007-11-23T15:43:00.000+08:00

focus on the light at the end of the tunnel!!!!!

i go to university for an education.
i have to make the school fees worthwhile!
don't waste the efforts put in earlier!

加油!

music: 罗志祥 / 萧亚軒 - 败给你

2007-11-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

s:陪你讲冷笑话
像冻到北极
要我陪你吃冰
恋爱是什么逻辑
算算星座和命理
到底谁在你心里

你这么惊天地
就要一路证明
谁在乎我有的比
当我一遇上你
却那么情不自禁
肯宁愿你蹂躏

你什么时候要回去你们火星
我越来越介意
做梦也梦到你
这算是我的天敌

e:你爱罗嗦又爱生气
喜欢我还嘴硬
好面子又假生气
s:好想被你吃定

败给你说话的眼睛
败给你微笑的魔力
不知不觉想每天跟你在一起
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo love

败给你少一根神经
爱上你这是我的命
我们世界原来就等这默契
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo

e:请问你还逼得我抓得那么紧
只是穿得性感些而已
你明明很自恋
让人等好着急

我心中你是第一名耐心还有爱心
爱不是有帅气就可以
拜托你别一直耍嘴皮
oh my oh my oh my oh my

s:什么时候要付出你那颗心
我越来越介意
做梦也梦到你
这算是我的天敌

e:很奇怪只要看到你
就变得好开心(s:有吗)
我已不能判你出局
s:我想把你吃定

败给你说话的眼睛
败给你微笑的魔力
不知不觉想每天跟你在一起
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo love

败给你少一根神经
爱上你这是我的命
我们世界原来就等这默契
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo

s:败给你爱上了你
看到小狗就蹲下去
骗自己你一定充满
我没发现的爱心

e:败给你爱上你
看不见你会生病
原来我也有害怕你
突然不见的危机

s:你也有温柔的时候
害我抬起头以为天上下着红雨
不然就是我还没有睡醒
只有一个我在意着的一个你
竟然的让我爱你
想你一天又一天又一天

我败给你说话的眼睛(e:败给你)
败给你微笑的魔力(e:我爱上你)
不知不觉想每天跟你在一起(e:想每天跟你在一起)
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo love

败给你少一根神经(s:我败给你)
爱上你这是我的命(s:我爱上你)
我们世界原来就等这默契
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo

败给你说话的眼睛(e: woo 败给你)
败给你微笑的魔力(s: yeah yeah yeah )
不知不觉想每天跟你在一起
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo love

败给你少一根神经(e: woo 败给你)
爱上你这是我的命(s:我败给你 e:爱上你)
我们世界原来就等这默契
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo

books to read!

2007-11-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

books to read:

Delirious New York - Rem Koolhaas
Boundaries - Maia Lim
The death and life of great American cities - Jane Jacobs

music: 潘嘉丽 - 在世界中心

2007-11-17T22:38:00.000+08:00

歌手：潘嘉丽专辑：在世界中心

作词:rachel shiu 作曲:byron

我静静靠着那里听叶落的声音
你是不是会听得见
看天空的星星浮云飘荡的风景
微风吹落了的脚印
一只蝴蝶轻轻飞过了你的身边
构成一幅动人画面
oh baby 在整个世界中心的就是你
有着不一样的感应
每当花开花落的季节我又忍不住想起
你那独一无二的气息
小心栽种把所有的感情埋在我的心里
期待着有那开花结果的一天就是你

我最爱的餐厅和你喜欢的电影
回忆里专属的场景
宠坏我的任性分享我的好心情
你总是什么都答应
有你出现再无聊也会变成特别
甜蜜占满整个视线
oh baby 在整个世界中心的就是你
占据着爱你的权利
每当花开花落的季节在这停下的时间
当你静静熟睡的气息
很孩子气印在我的心里感觉多么熟悉
关于有多爱你写成花瓣情书随着落叶寄给你
每当花开花落的季节我又忍不住想起
好想轻轻的告诉你

一种默契就是那么贴心
把你写在我的记忆里
来不及就是如此忐忑不安静爱上你

整个天空都是为了你
布满忧郁却很甜蜜的空气
那是我傻傻的想你
我期待下雨后的晴天
那一段暖暖的秘密
每当花开花落的季节我又忍不住想起
你那独一无二的气息
每个冬季翻开你的记忆仍在我的心里
期待着有那开花结果的一天爱上你

crit post-mortem part 2

2007-11-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

or was it about my attempts to convince them? they werent really convinced by some of the methods i have used, like the panorama... i didn't really try to convince even more. i could have though. maybe that could be a bit better. i don't know.

i'm like trying to avoid yet wanting to look at this crit in the face. i need to learn, yet at the same time there are so many uncertainties that would perhaps only be unravelled at the end of the day when you see results, or perhaps on monday when tsuto talks to us. okay i should wait before i speculate even more. no i shouldn't be speculating. the tutors have already said what is the problem. the problem is my choice of methodology and my inability to convince. i suppose my rationalisation has to be less instinctive and intuitive. yes this is the most important lesson from this.

yup. that is the lesson i have to learn. everything has to go back to the concept. does whatever i choose to do serve to realise the concept? i have to clear any doubt that is on my mind. NO POST-RATIONALISING!

crit post-mortem

2007-11-16T15:51:00.000+08:00

so what have i learnt from this semester of design? honestly i don't really have an idea if i died for crit or not. what was questioned was something very fundamental in my design: why have i broken up the process? i suppose my mind hopes that the crit wasn't as bad as it seems and hence it decides to look at the issue from a more positive light: the execution was okay so they decide to question something that is more fundamental, whether it was necessary or not in the first place to separate. however, my other voice tells me at the same time that it could also be because these fundamental questions were not answered that's why they did not move on to discuss something else. perhaps it's like what mr g said: the separation should be such that they would not question how and why u choose to separate, but instead on how u configure spaces and etc. i suppose i hadn't been able to do that.
however i would still have to say that the space hopes to add value to the activity and the act of doing instead of just display since the space (its atmosphere etc.) may affect the activity being conducted itself. okay this might be a bit forced, but if u have knives hanging over u while u work would that make things more stressful in a way? i'm not sure myself but i dunno. if i really want to influence the act of doing would i have to go into real detail detail? the individual objects would have to be affected? so then perhaps the question was if cooking is the correct medium to look at that. hmm.
i should be less stubborn in following what i want, listen more to the tutors, understand where they are coming from and what is the concern or what is wrong in this place. then work on that and answer those queries first before moving on to the next set of issues. do not be too impatient and think that there is no time. at the same time, focus and concentrate on one thing at a time.
time management: VERY VERY important. as well as PRESENTATION (panel layout and stuff). panels should convey the important points and i SHOULD NOT spend unnecessary time drawing unnecessary elevations which i didn't complete in time anyway -.- i seriously need to plan my panels better and i suppose earlier. and hello i totally had no title saying my site was at west coast park -.-
what was the lesson i took out from the unconventional site mapping? some seemingly less important things are value added/becomes more important through these methods of isolation/framing and memory attachment.
always move back to think about issues from a larger perspective when u get lost.

move ahead, remember the lessons and study hard for exams!

music: F.I.R. - 三个心愿

2007-11-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

歌手：f.i.r. 专辑：爱·歌姬

沁: 我喜欢你的眼神温柔又危险
请不要戴上眼镜我会看不见
想要张开双手把你宝贝
想和你天天见面
想带你环游世界
飞: 我喜欢你爱逞强苯苯的笑脸
在心中抬头挺胸坚定的信念
这个辽阔世界不够完美
但有了你在我身边什么都很ok
副歌(合唱):
第一个心愿为你把幸福堆积
天涯到海角头发到呼吸
第二个心愿给你最好的自己
再许个心愿我的爱把你占领
哦~~~
沁: 为什么为了小事就要掉眼泪
好象有太多的事只能自己背
其实只要你说一句ok
现在就立刻马上变成你的superman
飞: 这世上最重要的不止是誓言
只要你常常记得亲亲我的脸
我会永远记得这个今天
还有很久的那一天我也要有你陪

下一个心愿给你最好的自己

2007-11-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

there are some things you can only do with architecture friends xD
i am so glad i got to know all of you!

You know you're an architecture student when:

The alarm clock tells you when to go to sleep. (ok la it does tell me somewhat successfully when to wake up)
You're not ashamed of drooling in class anymore, especially during Structures lectures (just not ashamed of sleeping anymore since at least i turn up for lectures unlike some people hehe.)
You know what Superglue and UHU tastes like. (i seldom use superglue =p)
You celebrate space and observe your birthday. (now i'm not sure yet since my birthday doesnt fall on school semesters hehe.)
Coffee and Red Bull are tools, not treats.
People are nauseated just by smelling your caffeine breath. (that's why one should always have lakerol in studio xD)
You are surprised when you see a new building in your school.
You think it's possible to create space.
You've slept more than 20 hours non-stop in a single weekend. (me not that extreme yet.. maybe just 12 hours)
You fight with inanimate objects. (like bass wood bits that get stuck to my tweezers, and penknifes that refuse to be locked)
You've fallen asleep in the bathroom. (that reminds me: i have overslept for exactly one stop in two consecutive days -.-)
Your brother or sister thinks he or she is an only child.
You've listened to all your CDs in less than 48 hours. (and i initially thought that my music collection in the laptop was large. guess i need more cds muahaha)
You're not seen in public. (i havent gone to see the world outside home and studio for at least one/two weeks boo.)
You lose your house keys for a week and you don't even notice.
You've brushed your teeth and washed your hair in the university's bathroom. (i forgot my toothpaste one fine day.)
You've discovered the benefits of having none or very short hair, and you've started to appreciate inheriting baldness. (that does sound attractive though i'm not planning to cut soon haha)
You've used an entire role of film to photograph the sidewalk. (seriously that is very exciting. everyone should do that to see the permuations and the details u can see even in sth as mundane as the sidewalk)
You know the exact time the vending machines are refilled. (early in the mornings around 4/5am i think)
You always carry your deodorant.
You become excellent at recycling when making models. (modelling materials are SOOOO expensive! one should always steal stuff like acrylic from recycling bins in the year one studios hehe.)
When you try to communicate, you make a continuous and monotonous whine.
You've danced YMCA with excellent choreography at 3 am and without a single drop of alcohol in your body.- Not so much YMCA. Any song actually.
You take notes and leave messages with a rapidograph and colour markers.(i like my rotrings!)
You combine breakfast, lunch and dinner into one single meal.
You see holidays only as extra sleeping time. (exactly.)
You've got more photographs of buildings than of actual people.
You've taken your girlfriend (boyfriend) on a date to a construction site. (that could be possible someday.)
You've realised that French curves are not that exciting.
You can live without human contact, food or daylight, but if you can't print it's chaos.
When you're being shown pictures of a trip, you ask about the human scale
You can use Photoshop, Illustrator and make a web page, but you don't know how to use Excel.
You refer to great architects (dead or alive) by their first name as if you knew them (Frank, Corbu, Mies, Norman).
You buy 50 dollars worth of magazines that you haven't read yet. (yes i want to read them!!!!!)
You make numerous photocopies that you haven't read yet.
A kneaded eraser and a flex curve are all you need to have fun. (i mean trash is enough lor)
You think you can "design space".
You hear the word "Party" and know it has nothing to do with your weekend plans. (that must be the famous parti-models)
You have tried to squeeze sixteen hours of work into fifteen minutes . . .and succeeded. (now i'm not very sure about that. i only know that i only succeeded in penning 2 out of my 6 ortho drawings T.T i seriously love penning ortho drawings la! and i can do it quite nicely me thinks.)
You think things other than words read well.
You think trash can be artistic. (come on everyone should worship trash!)

i have created a new religion called trash. like its namesake, it basically worhips trash as the start of all things good, excitinf and creative and one should not look at trash as trash, rather as a potential for value addition. There are so many things that you could do with say unwanted strings/raffia, cupcake paper wrappers, plastic bags, old clothes and the list goes on.

i will come up with a nice doctrine somedayyyy. maybe after enlightenment during crit. if that happens yup haha.

that's why one should always talk rubbish you see.

music: 潘嘉丽 - 一秒钟的永远

2007-11-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

作词:姚谦作曲:kenn wu 小顺

每个人的心中都有一个小的梦
像蜻蜒点在微微涟漪水中
涟漪往往只会泛起短短一秒钟
却让人怀念的好久好久

在我们的爱情中总是太多风波
忘记它才能安然度过

释怀后的拥抱虽短感动却很久
就在爱情离开了我那么久以后
我还清晰记得在你怀中丰富感受
只一秒钟却永远了
虽然许多爱的可能在门外经过
为甚么我还深锁自己无动于衷
是一秒钟的天长地久深深包围我
只一秒钟却成为了永远

2007-11-04T20:28:00.000+08:00

seriously i need to stop being scared of being wrong. despite that it means i have to rethink everything and i cant move ahead with my design. that is so very unhealthy. i need to stop avoiding work and extra work and everything. blehhhh. save meeeee. it's just you. why am i still scared? =s

it's okay, being wrong will make u learn and u would not make that mistake again! so dont be afraid!

seriously i need to stop having this sort of split personality thing -.- haha

design

2007-11-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

jiayou and persevere! one week more!

apprehensive yet anticipating.

seriously i need to talk and discuss more.

do not be afraid of being wrong.

that's how you can learn. =)

thank you you.

2007-10-27T12:32:00.000+08:00

me is happy!

i must be turning retarded. haha must be hanging out with too many retarded people xp

lakerol

2007-10-09T21:16:00.000+08:00

i must be offering too much lakerol to people.

haha.

forest berries are nice. so is passion fruit.

shooting star

2007-10-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

i saw a big bright shooting star at west coast! =)

friend

2007-09-22T23:24:00.001+08:00

yes this was quite some time ago. but it really lifted my spirit on seeing this on my table =) and my whole day got a lot better!

thanks a lot! =)

2007-09-22T19:00:00.000+08:00

i should not spend any more unnecessary money.

*poof

2007-09-16T03:09:00.000+08:00

放手吧。

lost.

2007-09-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

i am banging into walls and plywood pieces and columns. using my head. oh yah and banging onto the aircon vent of buses.

(not to mention that splinters like me a lot. must be never do housework right. and my behaviour causes the unpolished plywood to scratch me. a lot.)

music: 迷路兵 - 适应

2007-09-09T13:35:00.000+08:00

没想过爱情会下落不明
寂寞都不忍心
故事的结局走不出背影
我只能静静的
风吹醒　那些曾经
转过身　我用眼泪聆听

心　该怎么学会去
适应　那些没你的安静
我　也曾小心的收起所有回忆
却总是忍不住不断的翻起
（你却一直住在心里　是谁都无法代替）

爱开始了　该怎么去喊停

=) 多么诱人的旋律。

2007-09-04T12:40:00.000+08:00

wondering about how different art is from architecture, why some tutors ask you to be more practical and why some tutors think it is exciting to explore stuff like voyeurism and not being extremely welcoming to people. all in the school setting.

should you succumb to whatever the tutor thinks is exciting? whatever the tutor says seem to have great impact on the direction you should proceed and should you deviate, the attitude the tutor looks at your design the next time would change.

wanni

2007-08-23T21:35:00.001+08:00

i just discovered the site of my primary school friend which i had no idea what happened to her after entering secondary school... she's doing interactive media design now... i like her works, very appealing to people and easily accessible to many people without confusing layouts and procedures in the webpages she do... furthermore her graphics are really good, her drawing has grown refined using computer programs but her style is still the same (=) as cute) do drop by her site if you are interested or you have lobang for her!

and where am i now?

architecture a service trade?

2007-08-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

should architecture be a form of a service?

it is to design to suit the needs and wishes of the client / or the people who should use the space (aka the users)? in that case would comfort be the most important issue?

then what should creating discomfort for the user be then? experimental architecture?

should architects be there to serve the client / user in the first place? or do they have the right to experiment and observe society and the common human psyche / actions in entering space of a particular configuration?

sde rag 2007

2007-08-21T18:44:00.000+08:00

live is always better.

i remember tearing after watching the rehearsal. the amount of effort, tireless nights, rushing around, buying stuff, fun, impatience and fatigue. watch your children take flight.

had my very very full suki sushi buffet celebratory meal today! XD

tanah merah country club anniversary rehearsal

2007-08-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how something so song2 can turn out to be exciting... i suppose that's the power of music, telling you not to dismiss older and seemingly irrelevant songs. at the same time, perhaps the overdose of class95 these few days make this musical type a refreshing change...

have fun =) and don't look so fierce -.- and don't give few-word answers -.-

Shooting Star - Boyzone

2007-07-31T06:07:00.000+08:00

No one seems to think too much of me here
and they're glad to tell it to my face
And though I am not suppose to be here
I'm completely out of place
Somehow there has got to be a reason
even as I try to think it through
There's a bold from the blue

And I see a shooting star (And I see a star)
Set apart from all the rest
While the other stars are standing still (ooh)
He's on a quest
Every night this shooting star (Every night this star)
Dancing across the twilight sky
Cause he knows he doesn't quit fit in (ooh)
and he's longing to know why, why (longing to know why)

I feel so much better when it's night-time
That's when I can sort of disappear
When the sun is set and it's the right time
for pretending I'm not here
Sometimes I just start into the heavens
Wondering if the answer is inside
That's when I see the light

Of my sent that shooting star
On his way to who know's where (On his way to who know's where)
He's a one like all the stars (ooh)
But he outshines out there (shines out there)
And the solitary star (solitary star)
Is an awful lot like me (ooh)
On an endless search through time and space
Far a place that won't seem wrong (place that won't seem wrong)

If we both hang on for long enough
we both somehow are strong enough
We'll find out were we belong

Every night this shooting star (every night this star)
dancing across the twilight sky
Cause he knows he doesn't quit fit in (ooh)
and he's longing to know why (why)
Know why (why)
Why (why)
Why (why)
Know why (why) [to fade]

co update

2007-07-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

oh i forgot to add that the fact it has a slightly similar pattern to a tattoo serves to illustrate the orchestra as a part of you (besides that i was slightly sore about not being able to put the tattoo on hbx's face)

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it's amazing how nyco yqp has an age gap of well erm about eight years. i suppose that's the only better thing i have done socially.

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i do hope the money was believed to be worthwhile since i did put in my best effort (a lot more than previous concerts) some errors here and there in the orchestra ...

mixed.

the concert seemed really short in my opinion.

千言万语

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rag is next. and the aug 5 thing.
co is fun. c-o-c-o-n-u-t!

与胡炳旭玩的故事

2007-06-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

There are many meanings and implications:

1. Rectangles signify this traditional square mindset and way of thinking that may be associated with the older generation and how they may perceive things / music. you can say that they represent the older generation or simply the mindset that rectangles=angularity and a stubborn/old-fashioned way of thinking

2. the forming of fluid forms using rectangles then shows that even the traditional can be re-interpreted and that nothing is definite. or perhaps, even the 'traditional' may be something new

3. the artistic is commonly associated with free-flowing forms and curves and this serves to tell many mis-guided individuals that no this may not be the case. and never to assume so. of course the forming of these curves in this case serves to be sarcastic to those who believe that the artistic=freeflow curves and forms

4. on a nice/cliche note: many rectangles signify the individuals in the orchestra where each little individual contributes to the whole picture and the creation of a wondrous piece of music. and each individual is unique and painstakingly drawn.

Stay tuned for more instalments or come for the concert on 29th July 2007, 5pm @ SCH

Do you have orange-black colour defiency?

2007-06-09T15:08:00.001+08:00

与胡炳旭玩

2007-05-27T18:56:00.001+08:00

Feel free to come!

star wars

2007-05-23T16:50:00.000+08:00

i want to buy the dvds and special edition of the trilogy!

been reading The Art and Making of Star Wars (episode III) and others lying on my bookshelf...
Re-watched Episode III just now... it's quite sad that many parts were cut out or shortened otherwise the movie would be super long but this somewhat made the scenes super short and unable to truly appreciate the work gone into the production of the film.

Then i remembered comments on General Grevious' coughing (i suppose that's to let the audience know at first glance that Grevious' is part human-part droid) in 2005 (while watching the cinema screening at west mall) haha and how he hunches and how Mace Windu and Yoda looked so pro fighting using their laser swords.

Somehow it appears that the worst scene aka the most unbearable or the most upsetting or the tear-jerker was when betrayal occurred and how those who were innocent or didn't know anything were sacrificed. The scenes when Anakin slashed the hand of Mace and went on his rampage to the Jedi Temple and the clone troopers fired on the Jedi whom they were getting along with very well earlier upon receiving the command of Palpatine ('Execute Order Sixty-six'). of course this was coupled together with the wonderful music composed by john williams.

This year is the 30th anniversary of Star Wars! (dated from Star Wars: A New Hope in 1977)

2007-05-23T16:43:00.000+08:00

i feel like going to taiwannnnnnnnnn

today.

2007-05-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

my mp3 player died! it does not respond to any signal!
YOU CANNOT DIE ON MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

observations at JC CO SYF Central Judging

2007-05-10T20:28:00.000+08:00

1. Central Judging translated into chinese = 中央评判

2. the morning session of the competition = 早上场

3. common mistake 1: too 爆的吊钹

4. common mistake 2: triangle is too loud (and blah blah) (ie. percussion too loud)

5. people start queuing up for the tickets at 1.15pm but the events people refused to hand it out before 1.45pm (but well i suppose those who expected it to be given out at 1.45 would be angry if it's given out before that. so well i shall accept that.)

6. i can't remember now. oh. one female conductor refused to move her feet off the stickers on the conducting podium throughout the whole performance for that particular JC. i wonder if her feet will get pins and needles (it's 10 mins!)

7. one should always sit up straight when playing da instrument.

8. i shall go bathe first. brb XD ok i'm back! -.- i might be quite mad today (i wonder why *looks around) oh. ms ding has piercing tall high heels!

9. it must be a fashion! that the yangqin 首席 likes to sit on the audience's right (aka near the 'traditional' 弹拨 side) (it should 'traditionally' be on the audience's left by the way) must be my influence! (yea right)

10. hcco and vjco are probably the only ones who buy their own uniforms (aka non-uniform uniforms)

11. i can't think of it now... shall include later if any.

Off Centre

2007-05-08T20:11:00.000+08:00

an eye-catching leaflet (through its use of grey thick paper and distinct black figures for the front) for the play Off-Centre:

First staged in 1993 to critical acclaim, Off Centre is recognised as a landmark play in the history of Singapore theatre, best remembered for bringing mental illness and its patients' plight to the attention of the media and the general public in Singapore.

The play traces the friendship of Saloma and Vinod and the hurdles they have to overcome, including social stigmas, prejudices and personal conflicts.

Off Centre has also been selected by the Ministry of Education as the first Singapore play to be offered as a GCE 'O' Level literature text from 2007, and has been republished by The Necessary Stage.

justification

2007-05-08T18:30:00.000+08:00

so yellow-orange + black + white is okay! so attention grabbing! xD

extracted from cubes magazine and Digital Life.

reading filmart

2007-05-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how these stage/backdrop designers have so much passion and enthusiasm for what they are doing. and it's infectious. it's simply amazing and exciting to see the image you always had in your mind while reading the fantasy novels/books realized. it may not be a space you may enter and explore by yourself, but you bring it to reality in film and share your opinions of the space imagined by the author with the large audience. it's taking a step to participate in the realisation process. there are times when you have read a book and when you see the realised movie, you are sorely disappointed (eg. harry potter). and looking at the lord of the rings, you are truly overwhelmed by the scenes and it makes you really enjoy the movie and the storyline. the stage and the lightings etc. contributes to the sense of loss/ danger/ hope/ relief you feel with the characers. the form of the space itself, the texture and the style. Form: warmth/ the sense of coziness from the scale of the space in relation to the occupant. eg. a rounded space that forms around the users. Texture: a rough irregular texture may represent a "primitivity". a sleek polished look may be easily associated with advanced technology, the future, or development. Style: the art deco style was very commonly used in the lord of the rings. perhaps its the familiarity that connects with the audience. as such the house may be recognised as a home. in dealing with man, familiarity appears to reflect a warmth of home or safety, in contrast to something unexperienced before, despite that the culture of this hypothetical race/ species might not have been thought to be represented in that way.

it's amazing how technology has enabled ir-reality to be realised on the screen. the overlap of photoshop layers, using miniature models, with a basic scene taken from a site. using lighting elements in photoshop to create different times of the day.

am reading the art of the fellowship of the ring. the trust and respect each member of the design staff have for each other is reflected in the film. i definitely need to learn from them.
fantasy and sci-fiction is simply exciting and an exercise for your imaginations.
try drawing/sketching it out. it's amazing how much detail your mind may expect and go into.

messsss.

2007-05-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

just give me an answer mah. rawr.

与胡柄旭玩

2007-05-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

which colour scheme seems more appropriate? what do u think of the idea? it's more of using simplee lines and shapes to emphasize the notion of play, like the word 玩 on the face (sort of like a tattoo, a merging of play and the conductor)

Do look forward to this concert! =D

Presented by hooxy and 静山空谷回音华乐团。

Get Fuzzy

2007-05-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

Frank Llyod Wright (1867-1959) is an American architect most famous for FallingWater, a building with cantilevered levels built over a river near a waterfall.

"Form follows function" is a classic phrase coined by Louis Sullivan. another American architect and teacher of Wright. 顾名思义，it represents a belief that the appearance of a building/ space should be based on the function/ use of the building/ its elements, rather than as a decoration.

the dark and the light

2007-04-29T17:18:00.000+08:00

The dark is generous.
Its first gift is concealment: our true faces lie in the dark beneath our skins, our true hearts remain shadowed deeper still. But the greatest concealment lies not in protecting our secret truths, but in hiding from us the truths of others.
The dark protects us from what we dare not know.
Its second gift is comforting illusion: the ease of gentle dreams in night's embrace, the beauty that imagination brings to what would repel in day's harsh light. But the greatest of its comfort is the illusion that the dark is temporary: that every night brings a new day. Because it is day that is temporary.
Day is the illusion.
Its third gift is the light itself: as days are defined by the nights that divide them, as stars are defined by the infinite black through which they wheel, the dark embraces the light, and brings it forth from the center of its own self.
With each victory of the light, it is the dark that wins.

The dark is generous, and it is patient.
It is the dark that seeds cruelty into justice, that drips contempt into compassion, that poisons love with grains of doubt.
The dark can be patient, because the slightest drop of rain will cause those seeds to sprout.
The rain will come, and the seeds will sprout, for the dark is the soil in which they grow. and it is the clouds above them, and it waits behind the star that gives them light.
The dark's patience is infinite.
Eventually, even stars burn out.

The dark is generous, and it is patient, and it always wins.
It always wins because it is everywhere.
It is in the wood that burns in your hearth, and in the kettle on the fire; it is under your chair and under your table and under the sheets on your bed. Walk in the mid-day sun and the dark is with you, attached to the soles of your feet.
The brightest light casts the darkest shadow.

-- Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith
Matthew Stover

2007-04-11T19:56:00.000+08:00

i think my design tutor mixed me up with another person T.T
(ie i do not get honest comments pertaining to my crit) T.T
though some things are still applicable.. but STILL. after about 3 months! T.T
should i mention to him that i think he got the wrong person? T.T

转角遇到爱

2007-04-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

转角遇到爱实在是太棒的一部戏！开头虽然有一点没那么精彩，但后头就越来越精彩及感人。加上好棒的演员，比花样还好看！XD hehe.
某人和某人。。。

实在是美丽的童话。=）

愛＊轉角 (轉角遇到愛片尾曲)
詞：Ｇｉｎｏ　Ｃｈｅｎ
曲：菊池一仁
演唱：羅志祥

我偽裝著不露痕跡的想在你身邊靜靜的陪著看著天邊

騎著單車往前行進著某個路口愛在等著

你往前走不回頭看了記憶的笑臉緩緩的敲著我的琴鍵

我不捨得讓你孤單單的我愛你的心牽掛著

心不再拼命躲不去害怕結果假設有個以後你會怎麼說

一直想跟你說幸福不在溜走下個路口你會看見愛有美麗笑容

愛轉角遇見了誰是否有愛情的美愛轉角以後的街能不能有我來陪

愛轉角遇見了誰是否不讓你流淚也許陌生到了解讓我來當你的誰

我不讓愛掉眼淚不讓你掉眼淚現在永遠你就是我就是我的美

心不再拼命躲不去害怕結果假設有個以後你會怎麼說

一直想跟你說幸福不在溜走下個路口你會看見愛有美麗笑容

愛轉角遇見了誰是否有愛情的美愛轉角以後的街能不能有我來陪

愛轉角遇見了誰是否不讓你流淚也許陌生到了解讓我來當你的誰

我不讓愛掉眼淚不讓你掉眼淚現在永遠你就是我就是我的美

愛轉角遇見了誰是否有愛情的美愛轉角以後的街能不能有我來陪

愛轉角遇見了誰是否不讓你流淚將寂寞孤單作廢讓我來當你的誰

我不讓愛掉眼淚不讓你掉眼淚現在永遠你就是我就是我的美

clearing dust?

2007-04-07T13:19:00.000+08:00

wondering if i should change an url haha. signify new start neh. yup maybe change to more design-oriented hehe. post some of my sketches etc maybe..
will change a template after the exams.. etc. haha.

many things have happened, many things have changed. many thoughts over this past almost half a year.. maybe i would use drawings! xD somewhat influenced by 小鬼 i suppose haha. watching too much teevee. xD

精神粮食 dated 30 Mar 07. feel free to give me your interpretation haha. there are some variations haha there's one black one.
加油nyco dated 01 April 07. that was before syf glad they got gwh =) a bit sad that i couldn't make it though. can u read the words? apparently many couldnt? o.o

i have to admit ms wee affected me a lot. because of the connections and similarities. luckily i managed to move away because of the nearing submission date and the relaxation after submission. i hope it will not happen again. really. seriously.

hope my crit goes smoothly on monday.

小情歌
词曲:吴青峰
演唱:苏打绿

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老

this is such a nice song. so is many others haha.

爱,无力

2006-10-24T10:34:00.000+08:00

爱,无力 - 潘嘉丽

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞成了习惯
习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘
不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚
我只想
对着夜空轻轻的呼吸
问自己最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中
翻箱倒柜寻找记忆
有一种
爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情
我的心如此无力
其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴落在手心

Kelly 加油

selamat hari raya adilfitri =)

2006-10-22T17:24:00.000+08:00

a wet puddle at your foot.

many diamonds sprinkled on the floor.

a smudged piece of work.

haha.

back to the drawing board.

one ppt completed!

2006-10-15T03:38:00.000+08:00

wheee. i completed one powerpoint on residences@evelyn! it's so cool! yay! look at the time! 3.32am! haha. and it's a weekend somemore! -.- haha. now i'm so high! Get HIGH! yong4 shuang1 shou2 ba3 lian3 cheng1 kai1! sorry if wrong lyrics =P

haha so sad i didn't manage to ask about the design from the contractors aka my company =P (hehe agenda for choosing the particular condominium haha. but anyway i think it's really nice bcos of it's eco-friendliness and there should be quite a lot of attention to details in the construction since it's a japanese contractor with 100 over years of expertise haha)

sketching is getting fun haha anyone wants me to do portrait for you? but my skills arent that good yet though haha any interested people can allow them to be my practice subjects haha. if i have the time =P

anyway i have one precedent study, 2 individual research essays, one design of a small space, more than one bangkok media comic to complete -.- haha so fun! (seriously, it's not that bad haha. though the amount is erm a bit overwhleming. okay i shall not crap and hurry go sleep. havent brush teeth hehe.)

good night~ (erm good morning)

(i conclude that i turn hyper in the early morning when i dont feel sleepy anymore -.- maybe it depends on what i'm doing anyway haha so many -.- faces =P and also depends on how accomplished i feel haha.)

2006-10-09T09:34:00.000+08:00

记得

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

flyinggggggggggggggg

2006-09-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

i'm flying againnnnn! haha. suddenly i'm flying a lot. going to bangkok tomorrow for architecture field trip! i'm going to see the tanks +soldiers and watch the controlled thai tv media haha. and go around looking at signboards. of course, sketching the grand palace, jim thompson's house, wat arun and the floating market! shopping! i hope haha. hope i don't get lost! oh yes i'm supposed to bring a compass.

SHAWWNNNNNN jiayou for O Levelssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! must pass a mathsssss!!!!!!!!!!!! =D and everybody taking a levels jiayou TOOOOOOOOOOOO =)

enjoy the break! (for undergrads that is haha) =)

space, beauty and freedom

2006-09-07T21:14:00.000+08:00

what is space? some of my studio mates defined it as an area enclosed by 2 or more walls/objects. but then what is an open space? how about outer space? personally i believe that space is everywhere and anywhere. as we see it, it is an area that is not yet occupied by something. a place where air flows freely, somewhere you can move about. a fluid and everchanging area. true, an interior (enclosed by walls) is called a space. but perhaps the definition should not be limited to this scope in our context? (there are 24 different definitions for space at dictionary.com haha) in our context. maybe outer space is too far away haha.but i believe open space as a space. walls need not always be present. architecture is like the design of a space, how it is utilised and occupied. a building/structure does not start from a place with walls already present. the space where a design is to stand is defined by the boundaries as stated by the client. but this is if architecture is under the limits of clients, the users and regulating bodies. should practical architecture, or should i say architecture that should be applied to current and practical contexts, be the only ones under consideration in the field of architecture? yet, if there are no boundaries, the space where a design may be constructed does not really depend on the '2 walls' or something that so called defines the space. in an open field, the walls are inexistent.

what is beauty? beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. i do not think that something my studiomates and tutor said and emphasized as beautiful is beautiful. yes it looks neat with its clean lines and smooth surface. but i don't see anything special. maybe special is different from being beautiful. maybe i expect more from an object that is a result of the creative process. or do i look for something more then the appearance.

what is freedom? the ability to do whatever you want to do? are the animals in the zoo deprived of their freedom? is the animal born in the zoo deprived of freedom? like what my studio mate said: how can the animal understand the concept of freedom if it doesn't know what is freedom? (as defined by humans) how do you know that the animal is not given freedom if you do not speak its language? how well can u know the thoughts of the animals? whether through their actions/health conditions. if someone is happy, does he/she/it have freedom? why do you want the ability to do whtever you want to do? to make you happy? if that is so, then freedom could perhaps just be the power to be happy. is happiness the ultimate of life? is happiness the utopia? is there a need for 'freedom' if the animal is happy in the zoo?

my model on free expression.

the nails are coated with the plastic fuel line thing. the whole thing is a column of the zoo entrance. this model speaks of the changes experienced in the zoo with time. there are 24 strips on the base, each strip representing one hour of a day, starting from 0000hrs at the left. the vertical blocks in this top view represent the density of people around these three pillars in a strip. as can be seen, human flow starts from about 8am , increasing with time before decreasing exponentially after closing time which is 6pm. this is like a continuous film strip showing the change in space as seen by the narrowing of the spaces between columns as human traffic flow increases. this model also explores the movable/fluid and the immovable/permanent. the columns are somehow like humans themselves, all lonely in the night, and filled in the day. in the front elevation, it can be observed that despite the high human traffic flow in the day, the vertical spatial experience is always present as the high columns always leave a void allowing the feeling of open space above the human heads. somehow the columns dwarf the humans. also of note is that although the columns are closely spaced in the measure of time, each column is rather far from each other in a strip. the arrangement of columns convey the sense of space in the zoo entrance. in this model, the comparative distances between columns (in the x and z axes) illustrate the spaces. isnt open/wide space/s relative? a hall is very spatial to humans, but a toilet is very spacious to a fly (if it can see that much distance). ur size determines the extent of the vastness of space as experienced perhaps?

the different materials of the columns and people also illustrate the difference between the movable and immovable, the fluid and permanent.

is the long explanation necessary? Richard Sapper's 'philosophy' is: the design should speak for itself. but this is not a functional design. so it shouldn't matter? now if i said this much/had this much time to talk during the presentation.................... haha

going to bangkok during mid-term break as part of archi field trip. (another studio is going to angkor wat!!!!!!! i want to go!!!) anybody wants anything? =D i'm not sure what to get since i've never been there haha. do let me know if you want/need anything.

SLEEPpppp! =D

first X10

2006-09-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

on wednesday (till thursday).

had my first day without any sleep for 40+hours
had my first day overnight in the studio.
had my first day without a bath for 48 hours. (i think)
completed my first site plan, floor plan, section and elevation, detailed drawing.
did my first model.
the first time i really nodded off during lecture.
the first time i bought stuff from the vending machine in nus. (i want to try the popcorn machine! haha)
the first time i used the atm at the central library (after braving the lonnnnngggg queue)
the first timeeeeeeeee i ate m&ms from 4am to 6am (or some time like that haha.)
used my 30degree cutter for the first time.

okay that's ten first times le. haha.

i'm soooo sleepy. but hey. it's fun! haha the model was nice =D although not perfect, but it's the result of some hard work from all of us! haha at least it's presentable =)

i'll do my best for all the rest! (after My rest that is. haha)

have funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn =D

hyper.

2006-08-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

hahaha i'm feeling hyperrrr. and greedy. and sleepy. and lazy. haha. architecture is funnnnn. if u know what to do haha and what the tutor wants =P cos i like practical work, writing and drawing. =D

the studio is going to be my second home really haha. in there everytime i'm in school and not attending lectures/tutorials. reach there in the morning (usually late morning/early afternoon) and leave school at night (after 9pm when my lecture ends). =D

i need to buy a cashcard.
i have lousy short term memory.

don't think too much. focus on here and now. then perhaps u will feel better and worry less and enjoy more! =) (i need that too haha.)

architecture@nus

2006-08-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

in architecture now! any juniors interested in going architecture@nus (yes it's the only uni in sg offering aki -.-) can come find me a few months later haha. i think it would really help to know a senior or two around in this foreign environment haha.

an exercise on the first day of lessons. draw lines and draw a space between two objects! haha stayed up to 2am on wed to complete my drawing =P the pen lines smudged a bit but at least it's presentable hehe. apparently some 1st years stayed overnight to complete the work o.o there're TWO hwachongians in my studio! (excluding me haha) didn't expect so many hc-ians =P

didn't really know a lot of people initially but after the first week, got to know my studio-mates, and some people from other studios through sharing sessions. =) it's exciting and the sense of accomplishment is really great!

the level coordinator (i think =P) said during the briefing before school started that we should not LOSE THE FIRE IN OUR BELLIES! i thought that was really motivating especially on seeing the designs (even your designs) realised in the physical world! a design= an idea carried out (physically, whether just on paper or 3d) according to some dictionary which i forgot haha. that, in my opinion, is the most exciting and satisfying thing out of architecture. u get the opportunity to influence people (whether consciously/subconsciously) through the environment they are in! muahaha.

every lost student out that should not lose the FIRE IN YOUR BELLY! haha it is essential to remember why you chose to be where u are! =) be optimistic and face each new day with an enthusiastic attitude =)

i'm going to the ZOO on monday! (it's a school project haha. measure the width of the zoo entrance blah blah blah and draw a floorplan, cross section, elevation and make a model later) it sounds fun! and i would face it with a learning and optimistic attitude! after all it's not often that u get the opportunity to go out during lesson times and have fun! =)

i like all my modules! haha (but tutorial hasn't started so it's a different story lol) there's history and theory of modern architecture which got me very excited over a book i bought today =P it's fascinating to learn the reasons influencing the changes in society and type of architecture produced! (there's this nice bookstore at bras basah with LOTS of graphic design and aki books! i couldn't bear to leave it lol. i want to buy all the books there! in maybe 50 years time haha =P) ideas and approaches in design is somewhat philosophical cos you wonder what is design, is it a neccessity/luxury, what is the purpose of a design? then there's sketching classes, design modules, and building structures (teaching physics haha. basically basics of how a building stands and blah blah haha)

i think i sound mad o.o must be because it's the weekend! =D and there's no project yet =P

shall go practise my lines haha =D

btw. remember me if u get a big plot of land in the future! haha =P

National DAY!

2006-08-08T18:10:00.000+08:00

i was listening to a medley of national day theme songs over the past years from 1998 as compiled by FM93.3. i realise that i don't really know how to sing the 2004 song by Stefanie Sun: One United People. i suppose it's because 73 wasnt that enthu over national day that year haha =P 2005 seems to be a different occasion cos i somehow know the lyrics to that year's song. maybe we got more enthu haha.

i remember that i love singing the songs together with my friends and classmates during the nanyang days haha. we were all super high during the national day celebrations. the broadcasting of national day songs during the national day period before morning assembly always had our 'gang' humming and singing along.

i suddenly feel strongly on hearing all these national day songs. now i realise the importance of national day theme songs and the celebrations held for the occasion. as well as the pri 5 excursion to the national day preview. super super high.

moral of the crap: i want to go to the national day parade!

new template!

2006-07-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

i think the name is nice! haha.

acknowledgements: shimizu's colour scanner and white paper (hehe.)
: VisiBone Webmaster's Colour Lab (for the lime green sidebar! please use internet explorer if you can't see it haha.)

currently: slackinggggg.

so i shall put up some drawings. as usual, i would like to thank Shimizu Corporation's (found in Japan in dunno-what-year) colour scanner(!it's super good!) and white paper (canon paper), as well as the black ballpoint pen without which, nothing would be possible.

i'm most pleased with this one =D

this was my first drawing! haha copied from mapleglobal.com (thanks!)

obviously i was too bored at work some months ago.

i should have spent the $45. haha.

The McDonalds Lady!

2006-07-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

This is the McDonalds Lady -->

(Note the M Letter on the hat, as well as the yellow/gold and red colour combination)

She goes: "Good Morning (or Evening or Afternoon as appropriate) welcome to McDonalds!"
*Flashes brillant smile (aka F2)*
whenever a customer enters the potion shop at wherever town she's stationed at.

"Would you like a Big Mac? How about a Filet-O-Fish?"
*tosses a Jr Pepe Fish from her stash*

"Oh Sorry no beef patty here. how about some cowhide?"
*tosses a piece of leather from her inventory*

She is also available for mobile service wherever she is at.
You only need to place your order.

She has astonished several unsuspecting strangers and earned strange stares such as F6 and F7. Nobody has dared place order yet except for two regular patrons who ask for chocolate (*tosses a bar of chocolate*) and bananas (*tosses a bunch of Lupin's bananas* "McDonalds promote healthy living!")

She operates from a booth in store when not doing her mobile duty as below:

Do NOT hesitate to approach her for help or food (McDonalds food -.-). She would be glad to help as long as it is **within her capabilities** <--Very Important Note

(Crab Claws and Coconuts available too =D)

FYI.

flying

2006-06-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

i'm flying off tomorrowwwwwwwwwww. the first time in about six point five years. don't miss me.

officially completed my job, unofficially still attached to the company for a few more occasions... a few more days....

btw. the job's taken.

2006-06-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

oh yah. anyone looking for a 3-to-6mth-long job? doing payroll (HR Dept), initially quite interesting if you have not done it before, after which it may get monotonous. pay is minimum $6/hr. deadline is monday. immediate. could be taught by me. muahaha.

mad

2006-06-09T12:22:00.000+08:00

it's not that i don't want to do that question thing dear wanxin. haha. but i'm getting real fed-up. over a student. (not the 10+ years-old student, but a 26 year-old one.) bleh.

i understand now what is the difference between others and myself, why i went to where i went. sometimes it's really fated and determined even before you were born.

patience. i really need it now.

2006-05-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

here's my handiwork. haha. it looks okay. i like the many colours haha. but maybe the scanning abit lousy plus needed to shrink the picture. click to enlarge.
to view the real thing. simply go to nycoyqp-rauch.blogspot.com

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